You know that old saying, "do what you love and you will never have to work a day in your life"? For over 2 decades of my life I thought about that saying often and wondered if I would ever discover what it was I loved. I even remember telling my husband a few years ago, that maybe not everyone gets a "passion". Maybe some people just live out there lives, doing ordinary everyday things, without ever having a dream, or a goal or something that they feel they want to achieve.
Then I discovered photography.
Photography could be called my passion. Some would call it my obsession. Some might even say it's my calling.
But even though I have found my one true passion the old saying still hasn't become true for me. "Do what you love and you will never have to work a day in your life". Not true.
I love taking pictures. I love creating images. I adore capturing a moment, a mood, an atmosphere. I live for it. And no, it isn't work. Never. But here's the problem......
Now... everything else I have to do in life is.
Anything and everything that takes me away from photography (except for writing of course) feels like work. The shopping, the cleaning, the cooking, running errands. Even gardening, which I once loved so much... now feels like something that is taking me away from what I really want to be doing.
It's not a bad thing though.
Having this much passion for something. Having something that gets you out of bed in the morning. Something that you think about whilst falling asleep at night. It's kinda like being in love. Actually it is being in love. In love with the person who I am behind the camera. I really like her.
Sure she is obsessive. And she is demanding of herself. She can totally have a one track mind and neglect all else going on. But she is driven. And she is determined. And for what may be the first time in her life, she truly believes in herself.
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