A couple of decades ago, I had a dream. There was something inside of me that needed to be expressed, a desire if you will, maybe even a vocation. But I was young and pretty lazy (if I'm honest), and it all seemed way too hard. After all, in order to live my dream, there were just so many things I would have to learn, skills I would need to master. And a pretty healthy lack of self confidence caused me to believe that I just didn't have what it took to be able to learn those new things. It was difficult. It seemed like SO much hard work .... and so I didn't do it.
Eventually as I get a little older (and hopefully a little wiser), I realise that you just can't call something you love to do "work". And whilst mastering new skills can be difficult, and time consuming, it can also be fun and challenging and rewarding. And that lack of self confidence (and self esteem) that plagued my youth, is not quite the obstacle that I once thought it was. In fact.. as I learn, and grow, and master these new skills, I find that my level of self worth is also improving. Things that I thought I could never do, I am now doing... and continually improving.
The learning that I once thought was "so difficult" is now fun. And of course the more I learn, the more I realise there is to learn, and instead of frightening me, which it once did, it now excites me. Because now I appreciate the fact that there will always be new things to learn, new horizons to discover. The sense of accomplishment doesn't lie in reaching the end of the learning process. But instead it lies with the realisation that growth and mastery is a continual ongoing process.