In the spring of 1988 I was playing 2nd base in a baseball tournament and got hit with the ball in the knee. It didn't seem to affect me much until 3 days later when I was playing a league game as catcher. The ball came across the plate really slowly and hit the same spot in my knee. It took the legs right out from under me and I fell over.
Change so you can connect!
It turned out that I had ligament damage and ended up with crutches for a couple of weeks.
Looking back at this it was one of the most pivotal moments in my life.
It is a wise person who knows themselves!
I worked in an office in the city as a temporary employee. I would get off the train and almost run the 5 blocks to the office every day. The crutches were a game changer.
I had to walk as slowly as I could to manoeuvre ok. I started to notice how fast everyone around me was moving. It literally hit me. I was one of them. Running everywhere, all the time, never taking any time to actually enjoy what was around me. It took the injury to slow me down enough to be aware that I was running through my life.
Now I can't honestly say that I have always paid attention to this but since that time I have become more aware. But when I find myself running I remember more often to slow down. Louise Hay has a lovely affirmation I use frequently when I find myself running again. "I have enough time to do everything I need to do!"
This allows me to slow down, and smell the roses, even if I am on a deadline.
So even with the new awareness, I was still not really connected to myself and my emotions. They would just pop up from time to time, leave me torn apart and then they would go. Then I would get on with things, even though nothing was resolved.
I grew up a child of alcoholics. My parents were never abusive but didn't participate too much in my life either so I chose escapism as a way of life. Always stuck in my fantasy world, movies and books were a survival strategy for me, and I was totally disconnected from my being.
Connect to your heart!
It is now 2016 and only in the last couple years have I reconnected truly with myself, found what my emotions actually feel like and I can even identify them now. I can't tell you how huge this is for me. I now recognise myself and what makes me tick.
I like being plugged in to myself. I like being able to feel what is going on, most of the time. I like knowing that I can come through what goes on. And I get resolution to problems and then am able to let them go. This other side is so sweet and life can be so good when you are connected and plugged in to yourself.
Find your spark!
Take the time to look at the moments of your life and see where they are leading you, challenge yourself to connect to the being within your body. It is quite the journey.